Every night when my kids lie down in their beds I give them a hug goodnight. I could have
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hugged and kissed them 26 times in the process of getting them into bed but that last hug is our thing!
As with most households bedtime is rarely a smooth affair. There’s pleas and cries and claims of immeasurable hunger on many a night. I try to stay calm. I try to have empathy for these emotions surging through their little brains but I’m not always successful.
When all else fails me I loudly announce to them that they don’t deserve their hug and leave the room. Harsh perhaps but effective. I promptly return to the room to be greeted with remorse, more hugs and then sleep.
Last night was another fraught journey to bed and I felt particularly aggrieved because there had been treats and extra screen time and I thought it was so unfair of them to treat me this way. Totally rational behaviour from a grown ass woman. I put them in bed and left without a big announcement and without the hug. Normally I’d be asked or there’d be tears but nothing.
I went to the toilet and thought I’ll go in now and give them their hugs. I hugged Kyle he apologised and then went to Finn. He was already asleep. Well I was overcome with sadness and said oh no he’s asleep and I never gave him his hug.
The tears flowed. I was distressed at the thoughts of him going to rest thinking that I didn’t care. Lads not a word of a lie, I was hegging. I kissed him till he woke. I needed to give him his hug.
I know it’s completely morbid and incredulous to think that some of us might not wake from our slumber but that is the truth. Tomorrow is not promised. I won’t be using that hug as emotional blackmail ever again. I realised I need it just as much as they do.
Hi there I have recently split with my partner of 27 years n he no longer speaks to me.. We have 2 kids and I have had to move back to UK. I’m feeling very alone any advice thanks
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My advice is take time, be kind to yourself. Reach out in your local community and make connections. 1 good one would be better than 500 bad ones and best of luck.
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that was a good story for lesson. did you feel that you get closer with them? i meant, the hug’s effect
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Of course.
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You’re welcome. X
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I know I had never intended to and when it happened I was struck with such emotion. Thank you for reading and commenting.
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This struck a chord with me. I could never let my kids go to sleep thinking I was angry with them. My favourite time when they were small was bedtime story. Xx
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